12.5.2010

Ahahaha, this is a pic taken from a window at NE 1-10. I took it while having anime club meeting. And was suppose to revise law until I got distracted by a random episode of Full Metal Panic.

But I will mention that I was seriously frustrated by certain 'adults'. Why do they want us to rush things? I mean, it is near instanteneous. I guess I should have really assert myself at the beginning and said that, KEEP IT SMALL!

Anyway, that was before I was calmed down by new knowledge. Yup, I learnt about Goldman Sachs, a bit and what is sub-prime loan. XD, nothing makes me happier than new knowledge, no matter which field is it. Sometimes, it doesn't even need to be a field of study. It could even be something.

XD, and IC classes are getting funnier, in a way.

Maybe....

I have a feeling that I changed. Its disheartening in a way. I was perfectly fine with my previous self. Is my change caused by an internal or external factor? Or was it both?

I can't believe I raised my voice and argued today. For something so insignificant. I feel bad but I still don't think it is entirely my fault. Still, one party must take the first move to apologise though.

I want someone to keep my sanity in check but I think the only person who is capable of doing that, might not know that it helps and what's the point?

Oh my god, I am so confused and frustrated that I don't know how to handle things anymore. Maybe writing it down here and post-mortem it might help:
1) Am I suppose to be mind-readers when we don't know anything?
2) Was there a need to shout/ yell/ scream?
3) How do I maintain my composure and not reach instead?


T.T

Nostalgia

Well, luckily couldn't see droplets of rain in this photo!! It was already gloomy enough by the time I took this photo. So, how does the sky being gloomy relates to nostalgia? I guess it is because these few days, memories of my time in Sri Garden keep coming back to me. I will be remembering super random things from primary days up to Form 5 times. Each memory that came back to me is accompanied by a smile and rarely, deep negative feelings.
I really would like to write every memory I had but I seem to forget them the moment it passed.

XD, guess these are the things that is best forgotten?