Lilian Loo and The A-Team on 25/6/2010

XD, was awoken by a surprise call from Lilian Loo asking me to accompany her at Times Square (which ultimately includes Sg.Wang and Pavillion) at about 10.00am.

Guess what is her main aim.

Ready to unveil the puzzle?

1) Complete her collection of Hajime Kindaichi manga
2) Watch The A-Team
3) See me la of course!! (actually, this part is I syok sendiri XD)

Anyway, initially wanted to watch The A-Team at Times Square, thus we parked there but then, the timing for that movie was so late! Therefore, we decided to watch at Pavillion but before that! We had to stop by at Sg. Wang to buy the manga. Lilian looked as if she found heaven when she bought the books~~ XD, lmao at her look at that time. Moving on, finally bought tickets at Pavillion and ate at Sushi Zanmai, I wasted a lot of food there though. :P

Finally, the highlight of the outing, The A-Team. This show is damn exciting. If I were to put it in anime/manga genres, I will put it in action and comedy. I mean, the cast in the movie was so eye candy-ish!! XD, sweet and slick. Sweet and Slick. XD

Dare ka watashi no tomodachi?

XD, ahaha, I was made restless suddenly when I read this :

find some good friends to take care of you and get wasted at least once

I had trouble finding out what made me restless from the sentence. As I am writing, I still am feeling restless.
No doubt, I have many good friends. Well, I don't really mind if it is one-sided but precisely how much confidence can I have in my good friends to not get hurt by the drunken/wasted me. It would cause me a great distress if for even a split moment, I caused any type of hurt to my good friends. Either by my biting and slicing words or destructive actions (read : physical attack)

Furthermore, I am too used being the protector to suddenly fill the shoes of being the protected. Don't get me wrong, notice the clear line between protection and domination. I don't need to be in control because I hate being too in control (just assume I shun responsibility). I only want to make sure the ones I care for, love for, respect for are protected either physically or mentally.

Fuck, I am on the verge of crying. I mean how the heck did things even turn out like this?

Gah!! when the hell I started having these kind of thoughts? Speculating it is form 2 when I start to build a fort around my heart. And I always have this thought that, should I even burden you somemore when you have burdens of your own? XD, I doth wonder...

Well, enough of that. Time to start trusting my tomodachi even more ady.

Ruefulness

Sigh, actually its more like pathetic. I don't know when this started but I definitely know I am spiralling into it even more.

Was it because I had been reading about van Gogh? Or I just watched Edward Scissorshand? Either way, I thought I was subconsciously surrounding myself with depressing stuff.

I also feel damn bad for not being able to go to 5sc1 trip to Redang. I mean, a few people went through a lot of trouble to organise it and I was not able to give my support. Looking at the list of people attending, it definitely hurts even more. T.T I should be sent to damnation. But then, I have my plans. XD

Could it also be internship? As 1st of July 2010 draws near, the more I feel insecure. I think it is because I have to change my mindset and contain my self. I can't be the loud, random and obnoxious gaki anymore.. T.T


No wonder the saying, humans regret things they didn't do rather than things they did.

Words of the wise

Taken on 21.6.2010

Taken on 19.6.2010

Taken on 15.6.2010

Taken on 14.6.2010

Finally, I put up all the pictures I had taken for the past week and today as well. Seriously, I do the random-est stuff there is la. Well, in my opinion anyway.

So, I got 64 for BF and 62 for Law. I am satisfied. I don't see any reason why I should not. XD I mean, I was only aiming for pass! So, after all the 'hard work', I am enjoying the fruits of my labour, which are enjoyment of total freedom (more anime!), polishing my piano exam pieces and doing up some stuff for my mother.

Anyway, so how did I spend my first day of holiday? First of all, I lurked in the library, at the computer area. I was sorting out some stuff through my email and preparing to meet one of the sponsors for AniManGaki 2010. At the meantime, I keep refreshing ICAEW webpage(was waiting for Law result also mah).

Once in a while, my butt get a bit itchy, I will walk over to Michelle's place and talk to her lor. I saw a few of those from BDO July 2010 intake de. Yesh! Jeckyln might be joining also! Too bad la, when Mr. Ong is here to teach them that time, all 10 of us will be under internship.><

Going back to the library, I borrowed two books. Have to return by 30.6.2010, which is just in time lor because that day is wednesday mah, can make excuses to go college. So, just in case you want to know the two books title:

The Vagina Monologue and van Gogh

Sa, anyway, then when I was preparing to leave to Sunway Pyramid around 1.00pm to meet up with the sponsor(animetsu), just noticed it was raining quite heavily. Stuck at college until 1.55pm while having a chat with Edwin and Steve, if it qualifys so. XD

Anyway, I really thank the Animetsu's Jason for the willingness to sponsor AniManGaki 2010 in certain aspect.
Not only that, learnt quite a lot of things from him too also. Well, things about life and working stuff. In summary:
1) It never hurts to be too detailed but it is detrimental if things seems shallow
2) Failing to plan is planning to fail (heard it often enough but never enter the head, today seems to be the day though)
3) Always keep stakeholders updated. XD
4) Never be vague in timing. It is dangerous.
5) Being a student might allow leeways but never assume an automatic right, lest it becomes a habit and damage your career in the beginning.

I think that is all that I gathered today. I am really happy to get to learn things like this, at least it is not the hard way, but I did get a little depressed because it proves how much flaw I have and I am getting more and more jittery about internship as the day goes by.

Fuck, why the hell am I writing this ass-long post. Gah! Each man his own!

Messy

So, due to procrastination, there are three pics that I have not upload yet. Should be soon, I guess.

Anyway, the main thing why I say this week was messy because that is just it. Had two days of Revision Class for Law.
On Wednesday, had Mock 2 for Law and then anime club meeting. I still feel sucky whenever I remember that I ffk two people but trying to let bygones be bygones here.. sigh.. I did have a great time at Sushi Zanmai though. Spoke the most crap for...days! Made waves of randomness also! I am damn proud to be myself.
Well, gotta keep my spirits high to look for sponsors and other stuff! Ganbatte-masu!!

Then the finale came on Saturday. Quite scary. And still waiting for result. XD, hoping for PASS. I am really marveled at how much I changed since primary school in terms of competitiveness.

Self

Well, finally had BF final on 12.06.2010 and as of now, I am still waiting for the verdict the come out.
And out of boredom, I am thinking about one thing only : myself. I realised that I am very bad intrapersonal things. When I say bad, it actually means it is worse than my interpersonal aspects.

But before that, I should describe myself so that I can get a good and hearty laugh at the future.
First of all, I am an open book which gets updated constantly. Of course, there are some pages that is blank, either for you to fill it up or find out the ways to make the words appear. Of course, this book here is not absolutely objective. It is more of a book that requires interpretation and your own POV. Just a word of caution, never judge this book by its cover. Sometimes the colourful cover it has might be hiding a dark and sinister story or the gloomy cover it seems to has might contain a story of mirth and joy. To readers of the book, I can only say one thing, thank you for reading the book, hope it made your life better.

So, what about myself, this is what I understand so far about myself:
-playful, childish, carefree, hates to be pushed or forced, will never mask displeasure/anger but limit human contact when that happens
-loves to learn new stuff, no matter from what field of study
-tend to ask too much but usually irrelevant stuff
-keeps people at arm's length
-takes a neutral stance on most things
-only do things for the greater good without making a loss for myself
-protects those that I care for(which is actually quite alot)
-might have forgotten how to cried.. XD

I don't know what else I can write about myself. XD, give me your feedback will ya?


The end of 99 out of 100 good conversations
Is always us being sneered at and treated like nothing
I can't laugh chewing on a stone like this
This time for sure I'm going to get 1/100 of it

A part of UVERworld song - 99/100 Damashi no Tetsu

Forever the wolf in me shall desire the sheep in you.

A sentence from Beauty and The beast by Nightwish

A week of BF before Exam

This week was definitely a merry-go-round. For once, in the first day of this week, RC class was ughhhh because we had to keep doing questions and revised here and there. So, it was ah, ok la....=.=
Second day made a turn for the better becaues we kept doing quizzes in class and played some random game!
Heck, we even did a pokemon quiz which Adam provided quite a lot of pokemon names. XD and this faggot claims that he doesn't watch anime. And since no one comes to this world, I doubt he can claim me for deflammatory or derogatory.

THE IMPOSSIBLE QUIZ!!! Damn memorable! Remembered playing this game in secondary school and had a heck of a time man! Its all about fun, fun! and FUN!
Then cheok also introduced a game, got a lot of balls inside the game de. A game of analytical skills and patience. Dubbed the world's hardest game, but by who, that I know not. XD

Wednesday was one of the best days in the year! Well, for once, applause to Davion for making this unofficial meeting! Because Shodaime came to the meeting! And I am bloody damn glad that I went for the meeting although that day got no class and had to go helter-skelter to look for a class to study in. Luckily I went to look for Michelle and found out that she actually booked Eb-1-1 for us to study. Thank you Michelle!

Thinking back, I am lucky to join CFAB in July. Because the alternative routes were definitely not as pleasant although less time consuming. This one doesn't mean to degrade the other routes but I am just showing my thoughts and the pros/cons that I weighted:
1) Route of CAT>>ICAEW : Thanks to my lack of competitive spirit, I dropped out of CAT and joined CFAB because if I didn't, I had to make sure I get good enough grades in the eyes of the college and company, before being selected/short-listed, however the system works. Of course, this route is faster but the packness of it!! It's enough to make you age faster. Well, my perception only though.
2) Joining CFAB later aka in January : I will be wasting a year and my class won't be that exclusive anymore. Because the Jan 10 intake has got 20++ people whereas my current class, July 09, has got 10 including me. Well, but we sort of take the freedom they gave us for granted because it sort of became a habit for us to change the timetable at our whim and fancy, which did annoy me greatly at some point but I had learnt to accept and go with the flow (I am such a
sloth!).

So, there you go. Ahahaha, all of this had got nothing to do with BF. Maybe I just need some stress-relief la. Alas, the time had come for me to go back to book-eating. Just got to make sure my sacrifice is well worth it.

Mocks OVER!!! And some new stuff

Taken on 2.6.2010, nothing much to say about

Taken on 1.6.2010, please tell me what animal your imagination lead you to. XD

Anyway, finished BF and Law Mock. IC is completely over! Now I will only need to focus for BF for the coming week and Law for the following week. Will be spending my Wednesday in college though, regardless there is SUAC meeting or not.

Then time for internship! I don't know if I am feeling excitement or nervousness.. XD, a mixture, again, I guess.

And, I added another link to Books+Reading and Japan. It's damn funny but damn useful (in some ways la). XD, I am definitely enjoying life.XD

Craziness

Today was a damn funny day man! Had laughter throughout the day. Only had two classes though which are BF and Law.

For BF, the funniest part was where Adam was trying to show off his Biology skill, saying he can be a doctor and I tried to make him look hamsap by saying, be a gynae? Then he said, aiya, gynae no future wan, my FATHER's gynae... and I burst out in laughter and I went into my highest laughter mode (supersonic/ultrasonic laughter and tears trickling down my face). Apparently, what he meant was, the gynae that received his father is the same that received him. LMAO man!

For Law, it will be the part where Lee Ning just fed me tau foo far and then Adam and Cheok appeared carrying San Fransisco drink, and me being me, wanted to poke Adam's stomach, got poked back. So I guffawed because I haven't even swallow the tau foo far but stomach kena poked. XD

Then one more joke about Saiyuki, involving Shu Tin, Tze Lin and Amelia. I asked Shu Tin if she watch Saiyuki and then the three of them ask, what is that? Then I told them "Journey to the West"(in cantonese la that time). They go and cheh and aiyo me..XD

=.=

Taken on 27.5.2010 and was kinda gloomy, no idea why though.
Nothing memorable enough today